clouds of steam.
clouds of steam will build up in closed pressure cooker.
as they continue to build up, the pressure in the cooker will increase.
if the cooker is nailed shut, eventually the pressure gathered within the cooker will force it to explode.
(i'm clearly not a physics student, so yeah. if i've mentioned anything wrong..i don't care anyway.)
point is, how far can people stretch your tolerance level until you snap? or in this case explode.
for personal reasons, i'm going to name this person X.
X is one of the important people in my life.
SUPPOSEDLY, that is.
he's been going through a financial crisis for the last 5 years after he lost his job.
Y, who's a very important person in my life too, has had enough of dealing with X.
(so do i, for that matter. it's kind of hard trying to communicate with people who donno how to use the internet and dun give a damn about current trends and music and tastes.)
X is a selfish person who only thinks about himself and how he can make big money in the largest time possible.
to do so, he scrimps and saves and pisses everybody in the process.
he's also a superstitious and so-called highly religious person.
prays everyday, chants everyday ETC.
the problem is, he went to consult a geomancer who said that it would not be auspicious to have a fish tank in his living areas. well. at least he( the geomancer) said it would not augur well for X this year.
now the crux of the matter. the fish tank and the fishes in it (DUH.) do not belong to X.
it happens to belong to Z. and X as usual imposed his iron will upon Z and DEMANDED that X be allowed to remove Z's tank and set the fishes free.
X's justification? setting fishes free will be beneficial for both HIMSELF and the fishes, as they are now returned to their natural habitat and they can swim free and blahblahblah about how animals/reptiles/fishes/birds should not be kept in the first place and how they are much happier (hur?) when they are free.
my point of view? how can you tell if the fishes are happy? and by doing so, you gratify yourself at the expense of Z's feelings. aren't you just so sensitive to Z?
i've always believed that you treat people the way you want them to treat you.
by trampling slipshod all over Z's feelings, you have made your intentions clear that you don't give a damn about Z and his emotional bond to his pets.
and by constantly reminding me,Y and Z that we should always think before we do something, you have proven yourself to be an oxymoron not worth my attention.
true, X may argue that by doing so, he has averted major disaster.
SO WHAT? did the fishes have anything to do with your SO-CALLED disaster?
in the first place, who asked you to not give a damn about the importance of this substance known as MONEY?
who asked you not to go for courses to upgrade yourself?
who said that retraining was propaganda by the government and that it would be a waste of money?
who told you that it was time to hang up your boots?
why the hell did you wait for such a long time before actually contributing to household income?
i have thus come to realise that chain reactions do occur, when one thing leads to another.
the root of the problem does not lie with the fish tank, it's the sad fact that X couldn't be bothered to rely on his own talents(of which he has none), abilities(none i can see) or strengths (commanding people like some dowager wannabe) to find employment.
things have degraded to such a point that X no longer feels that he can actually reenter the workforce and has to rely on divine intervention to save his sorry ass.
well. i think it is pretty unfair that we have to do everything while you sit on your sorry ass and brood about your failed ventures and whatever nonsense that's cluttering up your brain.
that is, if you even have one.
it's been especially hard on Y who has to worry about Z and her office stuff, and run the whole household.
while you, X, slack around watching tv and sleeping. basically, aren't you hoping that the sky will suddenly open and a divine voice will say..X..you have been granted __________. amounts of divine gold which will last you your whole lifetime?
and the fish. so you think you are doing a good deed by setting them free?
in truth, you probably have harmed them more.
tame pets normally have difficulty adjusting to the wild again as they have lost much of their natural instincts to avoid predators and possibly even to find food as they have become so used to getting their food from humans, they lost their need to do such activities and hence eventually forgot them.
this issue aside, X has never been there for Z or me when we needed him to.
well. i don't care anymore since i treat him as non-existent now.
but Z. Z needs what i didn't have growing up.
and YOU? you are so wrapped up with your fucking gay buddies that you REFUSE to make time for Z.
aren't you shirking your responsibilities?
you've already lost whatever respect i had for you already, are you hoping to do the same for Z?
what's more is that Z is at the age where he needs guidance frm a male figure.
and it just so happens that i'm taking over that role.
SELFISH ASSHOLE. i'm supposed to pick up the pieces for YOU?
i'm not even QUALIFIED to guide Z.
then again. i probably am MORE qualified than YOU to do so.
anyway. if you don't really understand this post, it's alright.
i was just really really angry and sad when i saw the upended fish tank lying in the sun.
i don't really know what happened. but i just started tearing.
just couldn't imagine how my bro would be able to take it.
right now..all i want to say is.
if you don't care about us, don't give a damn now, don't want to care about our welfare, AND EXPECT ME TO SUPPORT YOU, you can go and fuck off and die.
don't expect me to support you when you never supported me.
------------------------------------------------------------
sombre moods just seem to last and last and last. it's been like a few hours since i typed all that out and i'm still feeling rather down.
which of course i can't believe because it's friday already and 2mr is the weekend.
i can't pinpoint what's happening to me.
friday is supposedly my happiest day...cos the weekends are just around the corner.
---------------------------------------------------------
i have this vague feeling that i'm trying to resist change but failing inevitably.
i think i'm still living in the J1 world, and that i haven't progressed to the J2 world yet.
which is a possible explanation for my lack of motivation to actually sit down and study.
personally, i find it's pretty scary when all the barriers protecting you from the cold hard facts of reality just all collapse at one go.
i realise that my perceptions of the world are flawed.
i've been looking through rose-tinted glasses.
i've ignored what i don't like and i chose to see what i like.
bio lect and GP opened my eyes to what the real world is like.
and i'm still reeling from the blow. for someone who believes that every person is innately good, the shocking revelation that there are people who have complexity issues and genuinely believe that something else is causing their complexes and ACT on their beliefs and hurt other people because they want to satisfy their thirst for vengeance is really a hard slap in the face.
time for me to wake up, and realise that dreamland never existed in the first place.
as they continue to build up, the pressure in the cooker will increase.
if the cooker is nailed shut, eventually the pressure gathered within the cooker will force it to explode.
(i'm clearly not a physics student, so yeah. if i've mentioned anything wrong..i don't care anyway.)
point is, how far can people stretch your tolerance level until you snap? or in this case explode.
for personal reasons, i'm going to name this person X.
X is one of the important people in my life.
SUPPOSEDLY, that is.
he's been going through a financial crisis for the last 5 years after he lost his job.
Y, who's a very important person in my life too, has had enough of dealing with X.
(so do i, for that matter. it's kind of hard trying to communicate with people who donno how to use the internet and dun give a damn about current trends and music and tastes.)
X is a selfish person who only thinks about himself and how he can make big money in the largest time possible.
to do so, he scrimps and saves and pisses everybody in the process.
he's also a superstitious and so-called highly religious person.
prays everyday, chants everyday ETC.
the problem is, he went to consult a geomancer who said that it would not be auspicious to have a fish tank in his living areas. well. at least he( the geomancer) said it would not augur well for X this year.
now the crux of the matter. the fish tank and the fishes in it (DUH.) do not belong to X.
it happens to belong to Z. and X as usual imposed his iron will upon Z and DEMANDED that X be allowed to remove Z's tank and set the fishes free.
X's justification? setting fishes free will be beneficial for both HIMSELF and the fishes, as they are now returned to their natural habitat and they can swim free and blahblahblah about how animals/reptiles/fishes/birds should not be kept in the first place and how they are much happier (hur?) when they are free.
my point of view? how can you tell if the fishes are happy? and by doing so, you gratify yourself at the expense of Z's feelings. aren't you just so sensitive to Z?
i've always believed that you treat people the way you want them to treat you.
by trampling slipshod all over Z's feelings, you have made your intentions clear that you don't give a damn about Z and his emotional bond to his pets.
and by constantly reminding me,Y and Z that we should always think before we do something, you have proven yourself to be an oxymoron not worth my attention.
true, X may argue that by doing so, he has averted major disaster.
SO WHAT? did the fishes have anything to do with your SO-CALLED disaster?
in the first place, who asked you to not give a damn about the importance of this substance known as MONEY?
who asked you not to go for courses to upgrade yourself?
who said that retraining was propaganda by the government and that it would be a waste of money?
who told you that it was time to hang up your boots?
why the hell did you wait for such a long time before actually contributing to household income?
i have thus come to realise that chain reactions do occur, when one thing leads to another.
the root of the problem does not lie with the fish tank, it's the sad fact that X couldn't be bothered to rely on his own talents(of which he has none), abilities(none i can see) or strengths (commanding people like some dowager wannabe) to find employment.
things have degraded to such a point that X no longer feels that he can actually reenter the workforce and has to rely on divine intervention to save his sorry ass.
well. i think it is pretty unfair that we have to do everything while you sit on your sorry ass and brood about your failed ventures and whatever nonsense that's cluttering up your brain.
that is, if you even have one.
it's been especially hard on Y who has to worry about Z and her office stuff, and run the whole household.
while you, X, slack around watching tv and sleeping. basically, aren't you hoping that the sky will suddenly open and a divine voice will say..X..you have been granted __________. amounts of divine gold which will last you your whole lifetime?
and the fish. so you think you are doing a good deed by setting them free?
in truth, you probably have harmed them more.
tame pets normally have difficulty adjusting to the wild again as they have lost much of their natural instincts to avoid predators and possibly even to find food as they have become so used to getting their food from humans, they lost their need to do such activities and hence eventually forgot them.
this issue aside, X has never been there for Z or me when we needed him to.
well. i don't care anymore since i treat him as non-existent now.
but Z. Z needs what i didn't have growing up.
and YOU? you are so wrapped up with your fucking gay buddies that you REFUSE to make time for Z.
aren't you shirking your responsibilities?
you've already lost whatever respect i had for you already, are you hoping to do the same for Z?
what's more is that Z is at the age where he needs guidance frm a male figure.
and it just so happens that i'm taking over that role.
SELFISH ASSHOLE. i'm supposed to pick up the pieces for YOU?
i'm not even QUALIFIED to guide Z.
then again. i probably am MORE qualified than YOU to do so.
anyway. if you don't really understand this post, it's alright.
i was just really really angry and sad when i saw the upended fish tank lying in the sun.
i don't really know what happened. but i just started tearing.
just couldn't imagine how my bro would be able to take it.
right now..all i want to say is.
if you don't care about us, don't give a damn now, don't want to care about our welfare, AND EXPECT ME TO SUPPORT YOU, you can go and fuck off and die.
don't expect me to support you when you never supported me.
------------------------------------------------------------
sombre moods just seem to last and last and last. it's been like a few hours since i typed all that out and i'm still feeling rather down.
which of course i can't believe because it's friday already and 2mr is the weekend.
i can't pinpoint what's happening to me.
friday is supposedly my happiest day...cos the weekends are just around the corner.
---------------------------------------------------------
i have this vague feeling that i'm trying to resist change but failing inevitably.
i think i'm still living in the J1 world, and that i haven't progressed to the J2 world yet.
which is a possible explanation for my lack of motivation to actually sit down and study.
personally, i find it's pretty scary when all the barriers protecting you from the cold hard facts of reality just all collapse at one go.
i realise that my perceptions of the world are flawed.
i've been looking through rose-tinted glasses.
i've ignored what i don't like and i chose to see what i like.
bio lect and GP opened my eyes to what the real world is like.
and i'm still reeling from the blow. for someone who believes that every person is innately good, the shocking revelation that there are people who have complexity issues and genuinely believe that something else is causing their complexes and ACT on their beliefs and hurt other people because they want to satisfy their thirst for vengeance is really a hard slap in the face.
time for me to wake up, and realise that dreamland never existed in the first place.
posted by ivan~ at 2:26 AM
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