tragedy of epic proportions

oh the tragedy.
gp common test was a total disaster at least to me.
at least i think it will be a humongous tragedy.
during essays it was alright, i was still attempting to scribble stuff (ideas and such)
but during compre... i admit. i zonked out for 5 minutes.
and after that i kind of realised i was still at qn 3. then had no choice but to quickly flip and look for answers.
and the passages were so OMG to begin with.
and the questions were EVEN MORE omg.
sigh. could barely answer them much less comprehend what they were talking about, so i just anyhow zham-ed.
if i do well, i'm prolly just lucky or sthg.
and AQ. disaster.
i was just about to get to my most important point when she said pens down!
ugh. wells. it's over. now to focus on econs! i realised i can heck all the rest of my subjects EXCEPT ECONS.
i have absolutely NO DESIRE to go for econs R.
wait. nor do i want to go for chem R, bio R OR maths R.
which means i have to work hard, and at this point in time..i'm finding it quite hard to do so.
perhaps i need the whole holidays to regenerate. then i'll be back at tiptop condition =)

on a side note. i'm kind of feeling very detached recently.
like. i don't feel like talking, yet i can't stand the awkward silence.
i don't know what's happening to me too.
usually i don't mind fading into the background, but nowadays i'm starting to mind the background areas.
i don't think i've become more extroverted.
perhaps i'm not fully in control of the N demon yet.
perhaps i'm just stressed.
oh well. whatever the reason, there's no excuse for behaving like a spoilt brat.
so i shall return to integration 2 and not think so much. =(